My best friend is Sean Haines or should I say, Elder Haines. We met in high school and ever since we have always been honest with each other. He has always been there for me; through boyfriends, girlfriend drama, family issues, and just the normal girl emotional roller-coaster.
We didn't go to the same college so during the school year we didn't see each other as much as we would have liked. Thank goodness for Skype though.
We began unofficially dating and it was the happiest I had been in a really long time. I couldn't have asked for anyone better. And somehow through it all, he was still always my best friend first. I can't remember ever really having an argument or feeling hurt by him.
Today I said goodbye to him. He is leaving for 2 years to serve a mission for our church in Independence, Missouri speaking Spanish. I'm so incredibly proud of him and excited for him. But still, it was the hardest thing I have ever had to do...letting him go.
I feel like in a way I have lost my best friend. I can't text him every random thought I have. It will take a week for him to get any big news from me and another week to get a reply. I won't see his face or hear his voice for 2 years. It feels so far away now. It hurts and is so hard.
I want to just curl up in my bed and eat ice cream and watch movies all day long; except, most movies remind me of him. And ice cream was how we really started to get to know each other. So that really just brings more memories. But it is going to be impossible to forget him. He was and is such a big part of my life and who I have grown to be. He has made me better and made me feel more comfortable with myself. He is my best friend.
I'm so proud of him. I know this is the right thing and I don't want it any other way.
But I miss him. And it has only been 9 hours.
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